Friday – Went out to The Command Post to give Mike from the D&D Meetup a CD-ROM with some RPGA adventures for the game day he’s organizing for July 13th. I really don’t want to run this, but I have a hard time saying no when someone asks me to do something. After that I went to Cherrydale Cinemas and saw Wanted(good stuff), and then went to Hollywood Video and bought 4 dvds with their buy 2 get 2 free promotion (Once, Into the Wild, The Namesake, and Stardust if you were interested).
Saturday – Watched Stardust and hung around for home for a while. Went to Vespers for the first time in three years and enjoyed being there, but I hate everyone making a big deal about me being there. I just want to get past this interregnum and back into the normal SJOTL swing of things. Of course, it’s weird to want to get back into church life when I am so hopeless and am practically agnostic these days, but for better or worse it’s home for me. After that, I went to Browncoat Karaoke at Guadalajara. We had a smaller crowd than usual (only 10 or so as opposed to 25-30 last time), but had a decent time. I sang “Benny and the Jets” with Evil and Patrick(not my choice) and “Tupelo Honey” on my own. I had put in “Amish Paradise” but didn’t have time for that. Afterward, I went with Evil, Karly, and Good to see Wanted at Hollywood 20(yes, for the second time in two days).
Sunday – Went to SJOTL, left out early, and stopped by my old place to check the mail. I received my paycheck for jury duty a few weeks ago; a whopping $66. Woo-frickin’-hoo. Since some of the mail was for Jacob and he had the day off from work I stopped by his apartment. I invited him and Elias over to my place to watch season 2 of Dexter and to make something interesting out of the leftover chicken breasts from the picnic that needed to be used up. We ended up making a mole sauce and serving the chicken with onions and peppers along with guacamole(that we made), rice(zataran’s jambalaya mix), and steamed squash and zucchini. It was excellent, and a great way to end the weekend.
I’m still pretty depressed, but I’m opening myself to the possibility that I can be somewhat happy even if I do give up on achieving any of my dreams. Maybe the fact that I can’t let them go is what is making me so miserable, and I should just accept the not terribly interesting lower-middle class person that I am.